How do you see yourself? Is it accurate?

Before I could “let go and let God”, I had to let in reality. Back in the days when I suffered from an eating disorder, I had become attached to my identity as a “thin” person. This obsession tied my identity to numbers - the scale, the size of my jeans, the diameter of my waist. Early in recovery I was giving my complete and entire readiness to figuring out how to eat without losing my svelte figure. The problem, as defined by others, was my eating disorder - which was a solution from my perspective. What became a problem for me was to keep my attachment to my compulsive measuring of myself by numbers while getting my cardiologist off my back. One day I confessed this to a friend, who replied, “Calling yourself thin is like describing concentration camp survivors as ‘all muscle’ instead of telling the truth. When they got released from those death camps they were a bag of bones, one breath away from death.” Well, that was rude. But it also let in a bit more reality. I was not thin, I was emaciated. I did not look good, I looked like what I was - dying.

If you have a couple of minutes, sit down and write a list of words to describe yourself. How do you SEE you?