What Has Not Worked...

Here is what has not worked. Someone suggested that although the concept is theoretically good we probably do not have the chops to execute it. Leave this kind of work up to the big boys, they suggest. You know, those with corporate chops or perhaps government funding. Stick to what you know. Preach. Visit the sick. Host some karaoke nights. After all, pastors are prone to some crazy notions about inclusivity and love that will hinder our capacity to be ruthless in our pursuit of success. And...in case I had not noticed, I am an old white woman and that certainly limits my value.

These statements are no less valid than the encouraging ones. I am old. I am white. I have boobs that once kept babies alive through the magic of lactation. I do want to succeed at this venture but it is a proven fact that I am not particularly ruthless. (Although I can have my moments and a little healthy respect for my capacity to burst into flames of righteous indignation should probably be considered before throwing gas on my fire.)

The problem all these true statements have in common is that they are not helpful. They do not inspire me or our team in any way. They offer no path forward for improvement. My son asked me how I felt about the feedback. I told him that it feels awful to be reminded of all the ways I am judged as “less than.” But I also told him that this was not new territory for me. BECAUSE I am old, I have the experience to know that I do have limitations that have resulted in epic fails or diminished opportunities. AND in spite of those limitations, sometimes crazy ideas turn out to be good ones.

In the spirit of vulnerability I need to say this. If we do not give up, if the coronavirus doesn’t stall our plans or wipe out our church, if we try this new thing - this conversation will not be part of my inspiration for doing a new hard thing. It only takes one little outside voice to awaken the inner voice of doubt and shame and never-good-enough that lives within me. Nevertheless, I will persist.

Vulnerability Can Be Motivating!

“Vulnerability is the birthplace of innovation, creativity, and change.”

Brene Brown

A team of us are working on a new project that we hope will be one small step for progress in the world of treatment for mental health and use disorders. We have no clue if it is a good idea or a bad one. In our efforts to develop a plan, I have spent hours and hours asking for advice, feedback and input. I’m lucky in that I know a ton of subject matter experts.

I have not come to folks with a powerpoint presentation filled to the brim with all my awesome ideas - cause, well, the list isn’t that impressive. What I have said is that I want to do more for more people, and then I’ve asked, “What do you think we should try?”

Here is what I’ve observed. It requires a good bit of vulnerability to keep telling every single person who will listen that I have a dream but am uncertain about its viability. But it’s true.

Here is how it has worked. For the most part, we have received encouragement, fantastic ideas, and plenty of sincere offers to help. The ideas are concrete, experience-driven, and consistent. Every single conversation inspires me to want to work harder. We’ve changed so much along the way - in fact, left to our own devices, our finished project would look nothing like the plan that is gradually emerging out of the chaos of a big dream and a lot of trepidation.

What works for you? When you face an opportunity to take a risk for a good cause, what do you need to keep marching forward?

Tomorrow, I want to talk about what has not worked quite as well.

An Attack on Shaming Statements (Part 4)

...more thoughts on shaming statements….Part IV

* You have embarrassed yourself/me/your family.

When my mother passed away, my father wrote me an email enumerating all the ways I was an embarrassment to him. This was not his work to do. When we feel embarrassed about the actions of another person, and we all have had this feeling before, it is important to pause to prepare. One time I was taking someone to treatment and when we arrived at the emergency room, she laid down on the ground outside the ER entrance and threw a temper tantrum. It was epic. While I was inside trying to get some help, Pete stood guard over her as she got out her frustration with fists pumping and legs flailing. An acquaintance approached the entrance and recognized Pete. He looked quizzically at Pete and pointed at the tantrum-throwing. “Yours?” he asked. Pete shrugged. It was too much to explain.

I asked Pete if he was embarrassed to be associated with such a meltdown in a fellow adult and his reply was classic Pete. “I wasn’t throwing the tantrum, what did I have to be embarrassed about?”

I followed up, “What if that had been our daughter?”

He shrugged, “Still. It would be their tantrum, not mine.”

I am not that evolved but I aspire to become a person who can take responsibility for my own actions and allow other people the dignity of taking responsibility for their choices as well. I am sure there are a million ways we foster shame reactions in ourselves and others that I have not considered in these posts. I’m going to keep on the lookout for shame attacks. One final point. If shame worked as a tool for change, then I would advocate for its use. There is so much that needs to CHANGE in our world today. But shame does not work, so let’s keep looking for effective ways to bring hope for change and support the work of transformation.

An Attack on Shaming Statements (Part 3)

...more thoughts on shaming statements….Part III

* You can do better than this. You are better than this.

Lately I’ve heard people say, “We are better than this” in a variety of scenarios. I wonder. Are we? If we need to critique someone, again, be specific. My training instructor might say, “Your deadlift weights have dropped. Any thoughts on what’s going on?” She is reminding me that I have demonstrated in the past a capacity that is greater than my present numbers indicate. This is a problem for someone who is trying to get stronger! Maybe I have an injury, perhaps I’m over- or under-training. Comparisons are good if they are used to measure progress. It is unhelpful to say we are “better” - it is an unhelpful comparison and it can be either inaccurate or shaming, depending on our perspective.

* Do you have any idea how this makes me feel?

Instead of asking others to guess about our feelings, we will be more effective and less shaming if we can actually talk about our feelings (when appropriate). I might say to Pete, “When you get caught up in watching a lot of sports on tv, I feel lonely and disconnected from you.” This invites a discussion without me asking Pete to be responsible for my feelings. When lonely, I have more options than asking Pete to give up his beloved sports. When I feel disconnected, I can make alternative suggestions for ways we can reconnect. People do not magically know how we feel, and in some cases, our feelings are none of their business. Take for example a crisis situation with a child who has made a suicide attempt. Sitting on the foot of their bed in the hospital is probably not the time to ask them to muster up the energy to figure out their parents feelings. Instead, parents should run not walk to their own support system for the much needed encouragement and love they need during this frightening time. Later, with a lot of coaching, maybe it will be appropriate for the entire family to share feelings and process how this event impacted the family and what needs to change to create a place of healing for everyone.

...to be continued…

An Attack on Shaming Statements (Part 2)

...more thoughts on shaming statements….Part II

* Why can’t you be more like ______?

I do not like being compared to others, do you? This is simply unnecessary. IF we are in a position of student/teacher or mentor/mentee, comparison can sometimes be helpful. For example, I am teaching my grandson the fundamentals of tennis. Sometimes I say, “Look, Christian, see where Meme’s feet are pointing? Try that and see if the ball goes straighter when you stand like this.” It is a skill specific comparison made within the bubble of learning, not as a general statement to elevate one person at the expense of another.

* You have/had so much potential!

Oftentimes when we comment on potential, we do so with the best of intentions. We’re cheering someone on, pointing out a particular gifting or talent that we hope the person will recognize and develop. But often the recipient of these words feels more shame than inspiration. Potential is a concept for personal reflection, not social commentary. How do we know another’s potential? We are in essence saying - try harder, you can do better! But can they? How do we know that what we are witnessing is NOT their 120% effort? Better to say, if we are actually qualified to comment on and have been given permission to speak about another’s performance - Your butterfly stroke is graceful; your serve is strong; your endurance is impressive. Be specific. But make sure we are qualified to speak; we are speaking the truth; we are speaking to provide information, not to manipulate someone.

...to be continued….